Your Lease Is About to Expire

I spent the better part of my day packing my stuff so I can move into a new apartment on Friday. It was amidst all this that I realized that I own TOO MUCH SHIT. I backed like 4 or 5 boxes and still have all of my clothes and bedding and electronics to go. Oh and the my insane shoe collection.

So I went out to Wal-Mart and bought some stretchy trash bags so I could cull out some old clothes to donate. The thing with that is, I already have a large box full of clothing to donate. I have to be strong here and not look back through any of the stuff because I'll inevitably find something I want to keep or how found some new attraction to.

I am a little bit OCD about my room being clean, and it hasn't been clean in weeks. Right now it looks as if a bomb went off in it. Granted, I am packing, but it still makes me crazy. When I took all of the photos and picture frames down, my room looked an awful lot like a boys room, very sterile walls and no sight of the floor.

SO. I am excited to actually be living with someone this next year that I click with.


So anyway, back to packing, here are some photos from the 4th I promised.

I bleed red and black

I downloaded some new musicz last night-- stuff by Phoenix and Metric and Magnet. Apparently abstract, one word band names are in huh? It's kind of like that phase with bands starting with 'The', ie. the killers, the strokes etc. I know there are a ton more I just don't feel like thinking about them.

I am fresh back from my trip to College Station. I usually tell people that mention the place what a shitty town it is, mostly out of divine school spirit or whatever. This visit though, I realized the little town isn't so bad, but yeah it still sucks. Just because 3 of my best friends in high school were on drugs the day they chose to be Aggies doesn't mean I'm going to ever have anything but derogatory statements toward the school, it's creed and it's location. So I'm a bitch--go ahead and judge me :-)

Why is this? I found that my toleration for stupid or ignorant individuals is dwindling as I get older. In public school, you put up with idiots because you had to see them everyday and sometimes they taught your class. But listen! You have a choice! You don't have to sit through one more lousy conversation or explanation! It's gotten to the point where if I don't like you, or I think you're stupid-- I walk away. Chances are I'll meet an even bigger idiot up the road within minutes. Now some might say-- "Oh a&m just has a lot of school spirit, the idea that they are stupid is just a stereotype." Be that as it may, there are usually causes for the creation of stereotypes. My example for today is this. Whataburger. fabulous hamburger chain. It usually looks like this:

(If you're not from Texas or you don't know, there is a bitter rivalry between The University of Texas Longhorns and the Texas A&M University Aggies. Much like the North and South in the days of civil war. Okay..so maybe nothing like that but you get the picture. UTs colors are burnt orange and white--much like the Whataburger franchises' traditional decor for each location.) DO YOU KNOW WHAT THE people at a&m did to their Whataburger? They painted the front orange stripe maroon!!!! Not the whole building, just. one. stripe. So in a feeble attempt to out spirit UT, a&m successfully depicted their penis envy. 4 orange stripes next to a solitary maroon stripe. Good idea guys. Normal people might think this way: If you're not going to paint the whole building (which they probably couldn't because it's someone else's business), then don't paint it at all. You just come off looking like a douche. I tried to google an image of this hilarious Whataburger, but no dice. I'll be kicking myself for a while for not snapping a shot of it. We could blow it up and use it as a dart board in lbk.

Anyway. Contrary to the length of this entry, this was not the highlight of my weekend. I met all of M, G, and K's friends from school and enjoyed the big 4 day party. Everyone knows what happens at parties so I won't go into it--but I will post an image and let you imagine something good. haha I'm not in this so I don't feel bad about posting it. Shhh.

Selling of a loose knit dream

A good weekend with good friends leaves Em a happy girl!

It was a good weekend. A chance to relax for two days and forget about work.
Shopping, Good Conversation, Good Laughs, Drive-Ins, Movies, Dinners, swimming, running, catching, knitting, playing, driving, resting-- ALL FANTASTIC
I haven't laughed that hard all summer.
Being here and sort of socially cut off from even my best friends has been unique but difficult.
6 more weeks and I can go back for good.
It was what I needed to allow myself to say "It's okay to let go and give up."
I'm just tired. It's not worth the wonder and confusion anymore. To watch someone treat me completely different from what I'm used to is insane. I feel like if I'm going to try and take things in life less seriously, this is a major step. It'll work itself out eventually.
I'm going to step back, concentrate on other things and do what I'm supposed to be doing. And I feel fine about it!